Are you selfish?

I've been agitated the past couple of days and from an unexpected source. I'm agitated from the inside in ways I haven't felt since I was a teenager and maybe early 20s.

I've come to a place in my life where I'm finally healed from the 'humbling period' of my life. I went in my 20s thinking I could conquer anything and do it all by myself. I came out of my 20s pretty hopeless and claimed to have learned to be content. I had been selfish, perhaps even greedy, but now I had learned my lesson and was content.

Now in my mid-thirties I've come to realize that contentment, when abused, is selfish. Even if I had everything I needed to live comfortably, to sit back content would be selfish. We live in a world where the struggles of our neighbors and humans all across the globe is available for us to read about in little hand held devices that rarely leave our side. With all the hurt and need in the world, how can I sit content?

So once again I'm agitated and working to use my talents in ways that will make this world better. In the process I'd also like to help provide for the family so that we are more financially secure and able to travel with our children. The thing is that I can't do it 'all by myself' as I've insisted for as long as my memory goes back. I need make friends, enlist help, encourage others and trust the ripple effect of my efforts will make a difference in ways I cannot do all by myself :)